Professional Wedding Planner?

Actually, I am on annual leave right now, but I have not had any holiday's mood. All of my time was spent on studying for my exam and my sister's wedding. I felt very exhausted to plan the wedding while preparing for my exam in the same period. There were too many things I need to settle. It makes me crazy, extremely stressful, and scared on marriage too. Within this week, I am thinking repetitively thousand and thousand times about the meaning of marriage. But until now, I still have no answer to myself. I hope that I will get the answer when my "Mr. right" appears in my life.